Six Weeks

I found out I was pregnant almost a week ago. At first, I was very excited, but then I became upset. This is bad timing. I'm not over everything going on between me and Aaron. We're moving and we'll have a roommate. I haven't been working in about two months. I just got back into school, Now I'll have to put school on hold. Will I ever go back? Aaron graduates in December, but what if he can't find a real job?

My family talks a lot. I went to a family member for reassurance and support. Instead, this person told all of my, very judgmental, aunts and uncles. One of my uncles told his sixteen year old daughter, who told one of my cousins, who told her sister. Aaron and I wanted to go to my parents' house to tell them, but I was forced to tell my mom over the phone before word got around to her. I've definitely learned to keep my mouth shut from now on - especially when it comes to my family.

Aaron's excited and is treating me very well. I'm bipolar right now. I'm super excited one minute, but then everything hits me and I think that we can't have a baby right now. I'm only twenty-two. I wanted to be married in three to five years. I never wanted my kid to be in my wedding. Aaron laughs about it. I feel like this is going to destroy our already rocky relationship. He thinks we'll be fine. I wish I could be optimistic.